My boyfriend of three years breakup with me yesterday. I am so very sad. I'm trying to see the positive in this but it's so hard and the pain will not go away. He broke up with me because I was was not emotionally available, meaning I did not communicate I'm feeling to him and although he tried to tell me to talk to him I kept it in. He is completely correct but i did not know it was effecting him enough to start hating me. he was hurt breaking up with me but he felt he needed to because it was not fair to me to keep dating me and his heart wasn't in it anymore. i feel bad for hurting him and for not expressing my emotions when i had the chance. now i have lost him forever and it just hurts that i didn't get a chance to even change. he said he didn't know if he will ever love me as much as he did and I'm going to miss him terribly but i have to learn to live life without him and since we lived together the last year of our relationship I'm going from seeing him everyday to never seeing and talking to him ever gain.. I'm just sad and felt the need to write it down somewhere so here you are the pain and sadness of love.